*~^**12 WEEKS**^~*

Okay, so I had my second midwife appointment on Monday. Like I expected, she went to check for my little Spawner's heartbeat. It took her a little while to find it. I laid there thinking, "oh no, here we go again" just hoping that little Spawn was just hiding. Thankfully, she found the heartbeat in enough time before I had a full-blown panic attack. I almost bawled my eyes out at the beautiful sound. I just couldn't believe that it was my baby's heartbeat! I kept asking my midwife, "are you sure that's my baby?" And she told me that if I had that sound coming from me and it wasn't my baby, something would be terribly wrong with me. LOL. Since Dave couldn't be at the appointment, I asked her if I could grab my phone and record the sound for him. So, I got up, got my phone and laid back down. Here is just a small bit of what I recorded (sorry for the fact I had it zoomed in on my thigh the whole time):

At about 0:22 seconds, you can hear a "blip" on the video. My midwife said that the sound was movement. So, little Spawner probably kicked us for interrupting his privacy in there. But it's nice to know he has a little 'tude already. ;)

How far along are you: 12 weeks!! I cannot even believe it!
Size of baby: Lime!
Movement: Well Spawner's on the move, I just can't feel anything yet :( It will be about another month for that.
Symptoms: Symptoms are alright. Almost back to myself.
Total weight gain: 4lbs still. Holding steady.
Sleep: I have no problem falling asleep, I get pretty tired at night. But I've been waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to fall back asleep. It's been pretty annoying and I've lost quite a few hours because of this. :(
Food adversions: It's weird because I don't really have any real adversions anymore, but when I think of some foods, I want to gag, but it's all in my head because if I eat them, I love them. It seems like all of the foods I really ate a lot of before I pregnant seem to turn my stomach a bit (ie. pizza, gum, hot sauce).
Cravings: My cravings change. I have no specific cravings.
Emotions: Pretty emotional these days. Just watching anything on TV about babies makes me cry. Just thinking about my baby makes me want to cry. I just can't believe this is actually happening (which makes me want to cry lol). I've been so happy now that my anxiety has calmed down quite a bit.
What do you miss: Coffee still. I still haven't mustered the guts to go ask Starbucks for a decaf coffee frap. But there's no way I'll be able to go the whole summer without one. I hope they can do it.
Maternity clothes: Not yet, but my pants are getting mighty uncomfortable after lunch. I don't have a bump yet, but I do have a "thicker middle" as my midwife calls it.
Wedding rings on or off: On.
Boy or girl: I say boy. That's why I keep referring to the babe as "he". When we find out the sex and if it's a girl I'll change my tone. until then, it just makes everything easier than saying he/she. ;)
Next appt: Tomorrow is my 12 week ultrasound! So excited to see this little babe again since it will be out of it's peanut-looking stage.
Best moment(s) this past week: Hearing the heartbeat on the doppler Monday! Best sound ever.
What are you looking forward to this week: Tomorrow's ultrasound! Fingers crossed that everything looks perfect with our little Spawner.