6 weeks!

The deal with Speck:

This week his/her eyes, ears, chin, cheeks, jaw and nose are beginning to form. The kidneys, liver and lungs are developing and his/her heart has started to beat! <3 Right now Speck is about a quarter of an inch from crown to rump (they don't measure from head to toe because babies are so curled up in there).

There will be no chalkboard pic of me this week. My hubby painted the wall today, but it will take a few days to dry. I'll have a chalkboard pic next week for sure! :)

How far along: 6 weeks!! Woohoo! It feels like some kind of milestone for some reason.

Size of baby: sweetpea.
Total weight gain: -3 lbs.
Symptoms: Just a little more tired than normal, nothing too bad. Oh, and some weird hives started showing up on my arms and legs last Wednesday. They were soooo itchy, and the more I scratched, the more it started looking like a rash. I am pretty against taking ANYTHING in the first trimester (even Benadryl, although I've been told it's safe), so I just toughed it out. Yesterday I went to the walk-in clinic and the doctor prescribed me hydro-cortisone cream that I refuse to take. I'd really rather suffer than take my chances with meds at such a delicate stage in the game. I believe it's starting to go away now. I'm still itchy and the bumps are still there, but no new ones really. I kind of hope this is an allergic reaction and not a reaction to the pregnancy hormones. If I had to endure this crazy rash for 9 months I think I'd have no skin left at the end of it...I'd probably rip it all off scratching! Other than that, no symptoms. :)
Food aversions: No food aversions. I don't discriminate!

Cravings: I haven't had any cravings, really.

Maternity clothes: Not yet, hopefully not for a long while either. Although, I have been looking at some cute maternity websites and it will be a pretty fun excuse to do more shopping!
Next appt: December 19th. I saw my family doc last Wednesday and I got referred for my first ultrasound on January 7th! I can't wait to see Speck and see that everything is okay!

Boy or girl: I still think boy!

What do you miss: Sushi! I went out with two of my best girls this week for sushi. It wasn't the same just ordering vegetable rolls and cooked items...but it will satisfy the craving for 9 months. Oh, and coffee. I'm trying to have hardly any caffeine until I'm out of the first trimester, and boy oh boy, it's tough!
What are you looking forward to: We are having our "Christmas" get-together with our parents this Saturday at our place. Really, it is a Christmas gathering, but it's mostly to tell them our good news! So, I'm so nervous and excited. This is crazy.

Emotions: Happy!

Plans for the week: I'm going to tell work this week because I need to be moved out to a safer job. I'll be putting up the Christmas tree, too.

5 weeks!

How far along: 5 weeks
Size of baby: apple seed
Total weight gain: - 3 lbs
Symptoms: mild aching/cramping most days & very, very emotional. I get emotional at everything, happy & sad.
Food aversions: None yet.
Cravings: Salad still!
Maternity clothes: None yet, and hopefully not for a long while!
Next appt: Next Wednesday with family doctor and December 19th with a midwife!
Boy or girl: We're thinking boy now!
What do you miss: My friends, I can't wait to tell them & coffee! I decided with my husband that I'll try to avoid caffeine. I'll reassess after the delicate first trimester is over.
What are you looking forward to: Telling people!
Emotions: Extremely happy. I just feel so lucky and so excited. Every time I remind myself I'm pregnant I get this comfortable feeling.
Plans for the week: My husband and I are on holidays this week together. We are working on our house. We bought a new dining room set,  TV, couch for the office (making room for the baby's nursery) and we're painting a few rooms! Including my chalkboard wall!!! So, hopefully I'll have a chalkboard pic next week! :)

4 weeks!

I will be updating each entry with a photo of me and my bump (non-existent right now) soon. I'm trying to get my husband to paint a chalkboard wall in what will be the nursery so I can take my picture in front of it. Hopefully it will be good to go in a couple of weeks but until then I will just update without my photo. Each week (Sunday) I will update on my progress.

How far along: 4 weeks
Size of baby: a poppy seed
Total weight gain: - 4 lbs
Symptoms: Aches in my back, hips and top of my thighs. Lazy/tired (I can't tell if this is real or I'm just using pregnancy as an excuse to laze around. ;)  And the most annoying thing is my neck/back pain. Again, I'm not sure if it's a pregnancy sign or it's just my pillow sucks, but it kept me up last night.
Food aversions: Nothing so far really, but I have no real appetite and I get full real quickly, hence my weight loss so far.
Cravings: Today I sent my husband out to get me McDonalds breakfast, caesar salad and Smart Food popcorn. Cravings or just me? You decide ;) But I have been really, really wanting a caesar salad for the past couple of days.
Maternity clothes: Not yet, thankfully haha.
Next appt: I have no freakin' clue. My doctor hasn't even got back to me with my blood test result to confirm the pregnancy. I am annoyed with this actually, but it was over a weekend and holiday, so I guess I'll call tomorrow and see what my next steps are.
Boy or girl: No idea! My husband and I were trying to guess today. We're pretty 50/50...shocker?!
What do you miss: My friends honestly. I feel like I'm trying to avoid them. I know they'll want to go for sushi and catch on immediately if I DON'T want to go for sushi or if I order non-raw fish items...makes me sad. But I can't tell them yet, it's just too early.
What are you looking forward to: Telling people!!!! x 1000! Other than that, I cannot wait to see a heartbeat on an ultrasound. The miscarriage risk goes down quite a bit after that, and it will make things so much more real.
Emotions: Feeling so happy and still in disbelief! My husband and I have nicknamed this baby "Speck" because it's the size of a speck right now lol. All we do is talk about little Speck.
Plans for the week: Wait to get my blood results from the doctor to confirm my pregnancy and figure out my plan for work from there. Friday I'll be seeing my mom!

Day Two

So, here we are, day two of knowing I'm pregnant.

I still CANNOT believe it.

Last night when my husband came through the door I went right up to him and pulled him to the kitchen. He didn't even have his coat off. He was all smiles, he knew something was up. I saw him glance at the gift bag on the counter a couple of times so I handed it to him. He was like, "what's this for? Is it my birthday? Is it our anniversary? Am I missing something?" And I told him no, it's nothing like that, it's just because I love you. He opened it up and looked at the onesie, he seemed really confused until he saw the test that read "pregnant". Then he was like, "yeah right!?" And we hugged and kept saying how much we really don't believe it. Afterward he told me that he rationalized with himself that the gift was probably my way of saying thank you to him for all of the laundry and dishes he's been doing lately. LOL! I told him to consider this his gift. I'm never going to be able to give him a better gift than this!

Honestly, it doesn't get any more real life than this!

I just, JUST got my positive pregnancy test! I can't even believe I'm writing these words. Just about 25 mins ago I tested and it was positive. I want to document this moment to have it forever. I took a test this morning with a simple strip and it was negative. Then I went to the doctors to check for other things and get my flu shot, came home and decided to torture myself and pee again. And I could've SWORE I saw a faint positive. So faint it looked like a shadow...LESS than a shadow on the strip. So I held my pee for another 2.5 hours and used a digital test that spells it out "pregnant" or "not pregnant" and how many weeks from conception you are so it takes the guessing out. And low and behold my test said, "pregnant 1-2 weeks". The first words out of my mouth? "F*ck off!". No one was around to hear.

My husband gets home from work in about 45 minutes. I already pulled out the onesie that says "Daddy's future fishing buddy" and put it with the positive test in a gift bag. It's sitting on the counter.

I can't even believe this. I really, really, REALLY CAN'T EFFING believe this. Like, something's gotta be wrong. The sticks didn't work, or my pee was defective (although I know this is not possible).... I just can't.believe.it. I don't want to get my husband all excited if it isn't real.

AHHH. I'll write later.